Mum Of Two: Love, Loss and My Life on Towie

"I am a mum of two beautiful daughters, Larose and Lorena. "My eldest, Larose, is the light of my life. She is so like I was as a child and with her big brown eyes, the double of her father too. And she loves to be the centre of attention... just like me. "But my youngest, Lorena, is harder to picture. I was able to hold her as a baby and see her tiny face, but I don't know what the colour of her eyes would be now or who she would look like today.I've never heard the sound of her laugh, or her cry."In Mum of Two, Lauren Goodger shares the story of losing her daughter, recounting the unimaginable, as she revisits navigating the hardest thing any parent could ever experience.This moving book explores not only the event itself, but the way in which the people around her responded, and how their actions drove her to become the strongest version of herself. Lauren recounts this life-altering tragedy from the moment the midwife couldn't find a heartbeat through to the most difficult days, months and years of her life that followed in its wake. In the aftermath of the worst thing that could happen to any mother, she realises none of those books, and none of those Instagram or TikTok videos, will tell you about what will happen if your baby doesn't make it.The reality is that you find out that no one will ever want to talk about it, or even talk to you, because no one knows what to say.Losing your baby doesn't turn off biology, your boobs still leak milk and you still bleed for days on end.You still have sleepless nights but it's your cries that keep you up, not your baby's.You might be terrified, like Lauren, of having that tiny wicker casket in your house and not knowing where to put it. Mum of Two is an exploration of motherhood, loss, and grief - but also of immense inner- strength, courage, and resilience.